Paramnesia
Stretched out on the lounge, letting the fan cool me.
Thinking of shared fantasies, small tidbits from innocuous conversations that spark the imagination and ignite my core.
I savor it, letting my fingers roam but restraining myself. I know that I want it fast, hard, but I also want it to go on and on. And so I keep myself at the edge with the brush of a fingertip, the slow, lazy curl of a finger inside myself. I hold that feeling, teetering on the brink until I can stand it no longer. With one quick thrust of my fingers, a tap on my clit, I send myself spinning over the small, frail barrier I’d built to hold it back.
9.
Not quite misremembered. Just half-wished.